I am really depressed about all this. That I can't produce enough to satify her or not caloric enough. She still fits in most 3-6 months clothes since she is still like 14 lbs. She hasn't reached double her birth weight, which babies are supposed to reach by 6 months. Everyone comments on how tiny she is.
I tried so hard to make it. I really struggled around 4 months and somehow survived on about 5 hours of interupted sleep as I tended to her hungry cries, hoping to get my supply up. I took Fenugreek, an herb that helps boost your supply. It worked for a little bit. But truly my breasts haven't felt really good a full for a few months. I use to wake up full but now I can go 12 hours between feedings and not feel much difference. I know that she gets feed and satisfied sometimes because I can hear her swallow and she is a very happy baby.
I am sure I have done something wrong like letting her have a pacifier and g
And now I have to buy formula....great.
Hey Alicia, I was just reading your blog and wanted to comment. I know I don't have any personal experience since I don't have any kids, but I have been reading this blog and I just wondered if you might like to read it too. It is called Moosh in Indy. It s about a mom who struggled with secondary infertility and 6 years later she finally got pregnant again, and she talks about it- joys and negatives, one being that she wasn't able to breast feed. Anyway, I just thought I'd give you the link if you wanted to look at it. But I really don't think you need to feel like a failure, My mom was never able to breast feed me because by the time I was out of the hospital (2 weeks) her milk had dried up and I only weighed 4.13. but really, if you daughter is happy with solids and such, I would just go with it! I know that you are an awesome Mom! :) http://mooshinindy.com/
ReplyDeleteYou're a wonderful mother, anyone can tell by seeing you with your kids. I can't imagine how hard it would be to anxiously try so hard to nurse and not having it work as hoped...my heart really went out to you after reading this, thanks for sharing. <3
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